Monday, April 30, 2007

Music: OK Go - Good Idea At the Time
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UNC Chapel Hill is officially late with their application response. I got a response today, but it was from St. John's in Queens.

I was accepted and offered a $20,000 annual scholarship....

...I think I'm going to pass.

I know this sounds weird but in my gut I just don't think it's the right place for me. I'm twitchy and nervous and a general basket case at times but I actually have pretty good instincts. And here's what my instincts are telling me:

If I get in the UNC, I will go there
If I do not get in to UNC, but I get in to American I will go to American
If I get invited to both UNC and American, I will go to UNC
If both of them shitcan me I will wait out another year and apply to the night division at Fordham. What I'll do in that year I couldn't tell you.

But what I'm not going to do is give up. Nor am I going to just settle. Part of growing up means knowing what you want and not giving up at the first sign of trouble. Goddamnit I'm smart enough to go to a good law school and when I get out, wherever I end up working is going to be damned lucky to have me. Make no mistake: waiting out another year will SUCK but if that's how it has to be, that's how it has to be.

I only get one shot at this. I'm not going to fuck it up.
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Wednesday, April 25, 2007

Music: Pete Yorn - Undercover
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I like to think that I am a savvy person who isn't as easily swayed by the mass media to follow whatever is fashionable. I think I withold my judgment on "the next big thing" until it has real proven itself, from makeup choices to political candidates. I am not a blind,deaf,mute yes-man.

Then why am I so up in all this Google stuff?

I'm sitting at my computer with my Google desktop sidebar running news and weather feeds while showing me my Google calendar. If something of interest pops up I open a new tab and check to see if Google News has any more stories on that item. A look to my Google toolbar may reveal that I have a new message in my Gmail box. I cannot do my job very well unless I can use Google Desktop to search for my files. Now I have the Google Notebook tool. I can't see too much of a function for it now, but I'm sure I will eventually.

I'm usually a sceptic, but in this case I welcome our new robot overlords.

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I heart Google too.

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Monday, April 23, 2007

Music: Eels - Losing Streak
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I rant about how much I hate the BBC all the time, but I still read it every day. It's the best place for me to get reliable international news. But today it felt like they were saying sorry to me for all the shit about Virginia Tech. Today they ran:

Why Do We Hate Pigeons So Much?

I am terrified of birds. Especially pigeons. BBC has explained to me that I am not alone. Many other people suffer from peristerophobia (fear of pigeons) and a fear of birds can be explained through evolutionary reasons and caveman-time genetic memory.

Basically, quit giving me shit about my bird phobia. It's just my survival instincts kicking in.

Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to look up the name for whatever phobia relates to bad things happening to eyes...

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blogger wont let me login to comment again. this is A

ok, having a phobia = fine. phobias happen, they come and go. But genetic memory/evolution throwback causes? we might as well be deathly afraid of clams. they were the rulers of the sea!

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Actually, there are psychological bases for that theory. More people are hurt by cars today than by..say snakes. Bur more people are afraid of snakes than cars. People are typically more afraid of natural things. The most common type of fear is that of some kind of animal, and the second is evironmental (drowning, heights, etc) So it does make sense in general. Why not birds?

/geeky psych major's 2 cents
~Marie

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I've got the "Parasitophobia"- Fear of parasites


This is a good one too; "Zemmiphobia"- Fear of the great mole rat

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Thursday, April 19, 2007

Music: Jason Mraz - Who Needs Shelter
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So I'm doing my usual news trawl this morning as I pick through a file for it's important-enough-to-archive contents and finally hit the BBC.

"Police 'regret' at killer's video" (being broadcast)

Right next to the headline? Big fucking picture of the psycho with a gun to his own head. And below it, *another* screencap from the video...

...Good game, BBC. Good game....Mixed messages much? Also, everyone on that "Have your say" comment section can go lick a uranium rod.

And even better...Under their little section of articles that have been emailed the most today, the article about the killer's video is listed beneath and old as dirt article about a Sudanese man forced to marry a goat he had sex with, Miss Mexico's gown being censored for the Miss Universe pagent, and an article that indicated regular tea consumption might have the ability to protect skin cancer.

...Good game again, BBC.

We need to stop pandering to the sick bastard who ended so many lives and start focusing on the people he took away. Personally, I cry the more I learn about the second person who got killed. The RA in the dorm where the shootings started. Fuck, man. I want to know what he might have accomplished if he hadn't been killed. He sounds like an amazing person. 3 majors, an RA, in the school band, wanted to be a neurosurgeon....What could this guy have accomplished, you know? Son of a bitch is too cowardly to just kill himself and needs to make a big splash so he takes good people down with him...Let's focus on them and stop giving so much time to the deranged lunatic that started this mess. He was a crazy motherfucker. Got it. Let's move on.

EDIT: BBC has changed the photo they put with the article I pick on above. The article is now announced with a picture of the police....but INSIDE there's plenty of pictures of the shooter and a transcript of some of his rantings.

BBC your level of fail never ceases to amaze.

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but how does BBC com pare to CNN?

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Monday, April 16, 2007

Welcome to the information age.

I can bear witness to unfolding tradgedy while I sit at work.

When the day started, I was pissed. One of the lawyers wanted me to translate for one of our more mumbly clients (to be fair, she's had a stroke and is coping with it amazingly), a task I never really feel up to. No apparently doesn't mean no when it comes to tasks I'm uncomfortable with and can explain that I'm unqualified for. Between that and the cold office I was a little bitch-queen this morning.

I'm sorry I was complaining over nothing. Unlike 30 people in Virginia, I'm still alive.

There is something very disturbing about how instantaneous news has become. You can watch a body count rise by hitting the refresh button on your browser. Does this make the carnage more or less real.

For me it became more real. I hated hitting the "Google News" button because of what I might find next...but I did it anyway. I felt like I had to know.

I'm not a better person for knowing up to the minutes stats on the dead and wounded of Virginia Tech. It kinda hurts to know.

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That's kinda how I feel. Yeah, I had a shit day today...but I feel like even bigger shit complaining about it in the wake of everything that happened today... I was afraid to come back to the news after a break. Because every time I did, the death toll grew. ~Marie

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Thursday, April 12, 2007

Music: The Cure - Hello, I love you
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An update by popular demand:

Nothing has happened

The end

......

No seriously. Things are pretty much holding the course. Rejection from Boston College. UNC, Brooklyn, and St. Johns left. The fact it's taking so long to hear back from them is lulling me in to a paranoid sense of well being. I know that sounds weird, but I feel better the longer they take to get back to me. Rejections go out before acceptances. That I haven't gotten anything yet makes me feel that maybe an acceptance is on the horizon.

But I don't want get my hopes up. I live in constant terror of the mailbox. It's really messing with me.

Been staying calm with knitting, movies, and video games. It's really important for me to be able to zone out every now and again. Keeps my stomach from flip-flopping all day. Also keeps me from snacking so much. I'm down like 10 pounds since college. Lack of constant quesadilla access has done me wonders.

Overall I'd say this year away from formal education has been for the best.

Now time to wind down another day. Hopefully I can get to the movies this weekend. Grindhouse looks awesome.

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Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Music: Flogging Molly - Selfish Man
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Okay. I fucked up. I know now. I've taken myself down a few pegs so can things get better now, please?

I got rejected from Fordham. This is not good. I really thought I had a chance of getting in there and I got rejected. This makes four rejections and one wait-list. I'm waiting on results from Boston College, Carolina Law, Brooklyn, and St. John's. I'm really getting nervous here.

I've got a backup plan, but I don't even know how well that will work. What am I going to tell the places I apply for international relations type jobs? "Well I wasn't smart enough for the law schools I applied to so I figured I'd see if my degree had any uses while I lower my standards a bit"? Not a ringing endorsement.

Okay. I don't really want to talk about this anymore. That means I have to think about it.

I went to my cousin's baby shower on Saturday. Finally got to meet my cousin's son. He's cute but the poor little thing always seems sick with something. A cold, constipation, etc. He can be really sweet when he's not in distress, but oh man can that kid scream. I love babies and wanted to hold him but he was just too squirmy and I felt like I was making him unhappy. I still plan on making a sweater for him and for Sara's baby, and now that I've seen what the little guy get's dressed in, I think I have some ideas.

Alright. I'm going to get back to work now.

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Forgive me if I'm leaving two comments...I remember doing this already, but maybe I didn't finish, because I have no idea what I wrote.

*hugs* I know it's easy to panic, but don't. I'm sure it will all turn out ok in the end. Seriously.

And I'm just a phone call away if you need to bitch about it. Or bitch about something else to get your mind off it. ~Marie

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